Monday, August 19, 2019

I stayed up too late last night, my sleep mask slipped off at one point, & I've felt out of sorts all day. Really, I'm not up for this & frankly don't give a shit. But this is Work & Work Must Be done. So. Reason I stayed up too late is I was playing … Continue reading Monday, August 19, 2019 →

Sunday, August 18, 2019

Sunday morning - & afternoon, heading into evening - coming down, indeed. Decent enough day & decent enough mood. The anxiety & skittishness of the past couple of days has seemed to pass. I wonder if it was yesterday's medication run to Tupelo. Momma, the Therapist, the Psych Doc, the Little Brother, the Sister-In-Law, the Better … Continue reading Sunday, August 18, 2019 →

Saturday, August 17, 2019

The Sleep overtook me today, & I just let it happen. The cruddy feeling & foul mood of yesterday continued, so I feel I didn't miss much. I'm in one of my down moods, where I don't want to do anything much beyond stay asleep & not dream, or failing that, stare at the wall/moronic … Continue reading Saturday, August 17, 2019 →

Friday, August 16, 2019

It's Friday, another day of suffocating heat. I feel like I have red-clay mud flowing through my veins instead of good, old blood. This how I used to feel before I spent the week in the hospital to learn I'd have to spend the rest of my life taking Elvis-sized handfuls of pills for hypertension. … Continue reading Friday, August 16, 2019 →

Thursday, August 15, 2019

Last day of the teeth cleaning regime. Things look as good as they can, which just about sums up my philosophy of life more than damn near anything, I'd bet. I'm glad to see everyone's alright. I don't even pretend to give half a damn for racing in general or NASCAR in particular, but Dale Earnhardt, … Continue reading Thursday, August 15, 2019 →

Addendum

It's Momma's birthday. She's 70. She's what's keeping me here. She does her best.

Wednesday, August 14th, 2019

The Sleep got me today & got me good. Slept in after letting Otis out, was barely conscious for maybe hour, & then slept until three. Woke up, zombied through the gym, supper & a commune with the front yard. I feel anxious & ill at ease, afraid to make decisions or make any sort … Continue reading Wednesday, August 14th, 2019 →

Tuesday, August 13, 2019

I'm going to take it easy on the politics today. It's starting to wear me down. This is a young man's game, & I'm afraid I simply don't have enough rage to do it properly. That doesn't mean I won't do it, I just won't do it every day. I wonder if I've gone far … Continue reading Tuesday, August 13, 2019 →

Monday, August 12, 2019

I am very tired & not particularly in the mood for this today. The heat is fierce & getting worse. It'll stay in the 90s all week & might break 100 by the weekend. No relief in sight, either, just more foul heat & humidity. The Sleep is still on me, not quite as strong … Continue reading Monday, August 12, 2019 →

Sunday, August 11, 2019

The Sleep is still on me today. I don't know why, I slept pretty good last night. Even went to sleep early (for me) around 11:30 p.m. But it's Sunday & Sunday's should be for lazy. It's blasted hot out, heavy with humidity. I wonder if we'll get some more rain this evening. I can't … Continue reading Sunday, August 11, 2019 →