Since this has become the all-suicide-note channel, I might as well admit that I've felt a weird positive energy all day. Done a little bit of writing, done a little more preparing for writing. Figured out two of the three pillars of Whatever the Fuck I Have To Figure Out. I don't mind being alone … Continue reading What’s good for the devil is good for the angel. →

I have suicidal ideation. Off and on since I was about 12 or so, I've thought very deeply about killing myself. I've tried it twice and fucked it up both times. At one point, I promised someone I wouldn't do anything until I was 35, I couldn't tell you why. When I turned 35, I … Continue reading Relax →

New Year's Eve snuck up on me again. I heard explosions outside and just figured someone was hunting late. I wasn't even aware it was Sunday until a few minutes ago. My side hurts and I don't know what I've done. I've been coughing a lot lately, maybe that's it. I write this because I've … Continue reading →

I keep telling myself that thinking "nobody cares" really isn't fair, but it's getting harder to believe when there's no one else trying to convince me otherwise. I'll be glad when this is all over.

Just a little nothing from Tumblr about the whole "87,000 IRS Agents" doo-lolly. Long story short, unless you want the IRS spending time auditing folks that work at catfish farm at a higher rate than someone who works for Homeland Security, more IRS agents is a good thing. They probably won't come for you and … Continue reading Tuesday, January 17, 2023 →

Turns out, the word "filibuster" was originally another word for "pirate." Specifically, a pirate during what's called The Golden Age of Piracy or, to be more specific (and honest) Golden Age of Piracy in the Caribbean and Spanish Main. Roughly, from 1650 or so until 1720 or so was when all the stuff that defines … Continue reading It’s about a filibuster. →

I did have an idea about what to do with myself - a plan, if you will - when I hit 50. Inspired by the otherwise tedious Assassination Tango, staring the usually much more interesting Robert Duvall, I'd plan on doing that. Not the assassinating or even the tangoing, but I had planned on learning … Continue reading You know, I had a plan. →

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